How do I feel?

I don’t know.

Happy to hear anything.
An email, a text message. Anything.

Angry and irritated at how easy it is for me
to be hurt. Pissed.

Anxiety and worry.
What should I do? Should I change?
Why?

Terrified. I don't want to hurt him.

Awkward. What do I say, how will it be received?

Lost in those deep brown eyes, too nervous and shy to stay there.
I hate that.

Curious, intrigued, in awe and impressed. He’s so smart.

Playful and excited because it’s fun. And scary.

How do I feel? Confused. What happens next?
I don't know.

But I like it.